|*27TH dEC' 06*|

It has been a Wonderful Christmas for me This year. Thanks to ALL my Friends whom I have spent Christmas with, and also my Family.. =) *Blessed*

I'm still in the mood la.. ahhaha... Shoot.. I think I'm fatter la.. Eat and eat.. SO MUCH Chocolate la... hahaha... tsk tsk tsk
Candy Kills... Chocolates will too... LOLs... =p

Anywayz... its the 1st time I actually spent Christmas with both my friends and my family.. finally going out instead of sleeping at home.. lolz.. =x

Went to watch Night at the Museum with 2 friends jus now.. Seriously its Super funny.. I'm very happy.. HAHAHA!!! just that I'm feel kinda worried whent he animals escape.. yea.. but its really farnie.. Great Movie.. I like the Stone sulpture.. dunno wad name..
'You Dumb Dumb Give me Gum Gum'.. LOLS!!!

|*23rd Dec'06*|

Practiced Piano from 11 to 4pm.. with breaks.. All the Way arhhhsss.. hahas!!..=X
Kays.. den went for Company's Xmas Party..

Started kinda slow.. but after a while I got to know more of the customers la..
Then something didn't seem right.. and during the gift xchange.. that Confirms my gut feeling.
This FAT man.. I realised after a while he is DRUNK!! I was SO Utterly Disgusted by him.. Feel so insulted la.. kns.. Spoil my night.. Pissed off.. wanted to tell him off.. but a lot of pple.. so I could only face away and look at my colleague.. In the end I told my Boss about it la.. Dang~ =\

I left after the Xchange.. Dont 1 to go by the back coz will see that man.. kns.. So keep asking my manager to open the front door.. He still dunno what happen la.. dots..

I'm Thankful that I'm blessed with ......... but I can't be too proud/happy about it la.. but seriously at times when I encounter such stuff is 1 of the reason why I stick to being a plain jane.. =.=

And... right now.. somebody just figured out my intention of ....... !!!! *wHaCk!!* =p

|*21st Dec' 06*|

Woke up this morning, my mom told me that Ah Ma's house has flooded.. =.- Good thing Ah Ma's in KL.. den heard that my Aunt went to save the TV..lols... I wonder manz.. The last time that place really floods was in 1984.. The only time I was there that house kinda "flood" was a few years back.. I remembered that the front porch started filling up with water just after 2hrs of continuous heavy rain.. the backyard where the veggies are is alreayd flooded.. the water was threatening to enter the toliet.. we had to close the door jus to prevent the water from entering the house..=.- I think that place is a very low lying land.. that's why it's always affected by floods.. Saw the news and newspapers.. the whole Segamat is like in water... Gemas too la..aiyoo.

Aiyo.. den CNY how? I bet after the water leaves.. the house will be filled with Mud.. eerkks..
My pillow..=\ New beds for New Year?? =X Tsk tsk tsk......


Now I'm so bored at home.. I think coz I seldom stay at home the whole day nowadays.. Am always outside, either working or out with friends or in school or wateva la...
The weather these few days are great manz.. Natural air - con.. Kinda cold at times but its nice.. Feels like the weather in Korea during September =X I think I cannot stay at home the whole day.. I just cannot seem to do anything.. Lazing around.. especially with this kinda weather.. lols..
Feel like watching Night at the Museum.. any takers?=x

Something's bothering me at the back of my head.....

|*20th Dec'06*|

5 days to Christmas. I don't know why I'm so excited about Christmas, I've been looking forward to it since a month ago.. LOL.. not as if I have Parties or Big celebration planned, well perhaps there might be.. Heee.. Perhaps maybe I've felt the Joy of the Coming of Jesus Christ..=D
I'm Broke this month. I'm not sure why.. I did shop a bit in the beginning, but I guess majority of it is spent on food at city area.. its ex...=\ Sigh.. and there are gifts exchanges..=.- Ohh well.. lols..

I've been trying to draw up my own Christmas Wish List..
Here it is.. Hopefully it ain't weird..

My Christmas Wish List:

to watch A Night at the Museum
Corrine May's Xmas CD
Love Actually DVD
At First Sight - Nicholas Sparks
or Dear John - Nicholas Sparks

Spend time with my Family
Be more in Touch with God
Sustain friendships
Get my 'Spark' back
To See my Light
To spread the Love of God thru me
(everything)
To touch pple's heart

I know that when things go smoothly, somehow it'll start slowing down somewhere.....=\ get use to it Becca...=.-

I still hate the fact that I realise it, if I hadn't this would not have troubled me. It might be good, but the bad part is bad la.. i think..

I need to get my spark back.. to burn the fire again.. I need pple to start kicking me....... maybe? where's my fire...

|*3rd Dec' 06*|

I just felt like blogging.... Here Goes..

Today is the 1st Sunday of Avent, its like a start of a New Year for the Catholic Liturgical Calendar. Its currently Year C.

The message sent to us today was: Stay Awake! Do not be Overconfident, but Do not be Afraid!
Also, look out for warnings and signs. Hold your head high even though you're down, because the Saviour is Coming. Have Faith!

After hearing the Homily, I wonder what its trying to tell me. I wonder if I'm thinking correctly, this or that? Like people always say, you will not get the things you want when you want them but yet you will get it when you least expected it to come. Very True, but I do not want it! but why is it turning the other way round then? I just wish these troubles can just leave my head at once. Its that time again when I will just plunge deep, until something lifts me up.

I hate people misinterpreting what my actions or words meant. I hate being mistaken. Its just didn't come out the way I wanted it to. ROOOAARRR!!!!

Alright I don't know what I'm talking about.. Just ignore it yea.. I just want my brain to stop haunting me with all these crap which shouldn't be troubling me!

|*19th Nov'06*|

My feet is breaking.. Lolx.. They hurt la.. like going to cramp soon.. Ohh well..

Nite Cycling was not too bad.. but I feel darn scared lahs.. coz its kinda dangerous.. and after hearing abt the casualties..plus my brakes isn't that good..=\ As in 1 is too sharp another is dunno wad la.. anyway everytime I brake it makes noise.. yea..=\ The previous nite cycling was safer.. coz there ain't much cars along the route..

Went to Work today.. didn't sit much coz I nvr thought of sitting at all.. coz I know my butt will hurt.. Lolz.. Anyway.. I think that my feet has some issues... lols.. I think I need arc support.. I'm not flat feet neither do I haf high arc.. its jus a normal feet but I guess my arc collapses when my shoe doesnt haf arc support..hmmmm....?

I need skirts..yea its kinda surprising to hear me say that.. but well.. since 1 of the 3 I haf jus got "spoiled'.. I really need to get some just so I don't haf to wear jeans all the time..=.= and yea I do need another pair of tight fitting jeans..=\ Needa get a pair of heels coz the 1 I've been wearing is 'spoiled' Anywayz.. the thing is.. I need to do some shopping yea..? If not I don't know what I can wear to my cousin's wedding or some occasion or when I go out la.. lols.. =.="

I'm kinda fustrated with myself.. sometimes I think back, I should be more relaxed la.. as in takes things easy loh.. instead of being gan jiong.. hmmm...I think there's some difference from previously which I'm getting worried....

Becca.. pls be a better person.. =\

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OHH!!! I'M SO TIRED!!!

I can't seem to find time to study and do my work properly.. There's always things that I need to rush to complete.. and I just don't have the energy left to do them.. It just makes me more Vex and irritated. ARGHS!!!!!

|* 12th Nov' 06*|

This is one of the reasons I say I hate my Life. People around you will just mistaken you for some attitude and start screaming at you. Fine! Say whatever you want about me I dont care arhhs.. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! How many of my days and nights are going to be spoiled because of this. Am I suppose to suffer all these crap every night or what? Don't I have enough problems to figure out? Scream at every lil' thing you are displeased, mistook my attitude for every lil face i show, words i say and my tone.. so wad? Every way of my communication is wrong la.. What's your problem.. I already don't want to reply just so I won't flare my temper and now you make me blow up when I'm trying to prevent it. And I'm petty for saying those things.. Every comment I make is displeased, so might as well I just SHUT UP.. Won't you be Happy then? So I dun haf my freedom to show my displeasure la.. Am I still considered Human den? Even Animals haf their Rights. Damn.. Sometimes I feel I'm cursed. Next time just leave me ALONE. damn.. I'm already 18 and you dunno when to leave me alone? and sense my temper rising? Are you kidding??? I hate pple digging out what had happen b4 and jus add it to the arguement, holding grudge? or nth to say already..

I slam my door jus coz I haf no mood also wrong. I can't get angry meh, cannot haf my unhappy days arhhs.. I angry you also must know arhh.. I have my choice to choose whether to say out or not. u CAN'T force me. I already slam the door so just leave me alone. Y throw urself at a raging lion? Just by doing u pick up a quarrel. And Now I haf Hoarse voice.. y.. coz u made me Shout! I was trying to prevent all these and u made it happen WTH?? Now I'm Super Pissed Off!!!

|*5th Nov' 06*|

I realise that there are MANY things for me to Think, Plan, Ponder and Reflect on. Both Big and Small. I think I've come to a point whereby I'm stunned by the questions and I just cannot answer them right away, which tells me that its time to sit down and THINK.

My brain was Constantly thinking while I made my way home, it's always like that but I just can't seem to remember them and type everything out.

What do I want to acheive in my next 6months? A question that sets me thinking. Its good that I got this question. Seriously. It made me Think and now I know/reminded me of what I'm aiming for, so that I will work hard to achieve them. Sometimes I just wonder why i can't question myself with these sort of questions, so that I won't be so lost along the way. I guess that's why we have friends. yea? I think its the way of God showing me my way.

Are my expectations of people that high? My expectations for myself can be, but I know my strength (I suppose?). Well, I do evaluate myself with that expectation. If I can acheive it why can't they? But I do see things on a case by case basis alright.

Then comes another question. Well, I really need time to think about it. Its like an answer which really might make an impact somehow. I know I'm not ready because I can't even think straight on it. Yea I did blurt that out but well yea..it is not wrong to say that its a fact or my deepest desire, but I know that the time has not come yet. Of course it'll be great to daa daa daa daa.. but I might jus encounter many road blocks if I try to make my way through. so yea. Be clear and Displine, no distractions/side tracking. Dang~~ its getting serious.

Lots Of Volunteery Efforts = LOVE
(from the parish Priest during today's Homily)

|*29th Oct' 06*|

I went to Cathedral of the Good Shepherd today!!! Dang.. it took me 40mins to get there.. and I was late by 1min..=.= Anywayz.. I was kinda surprised that the Kyrie,Santus,Memorial acclamation and even the Credo are sung in Latin (i think).. and all the hyms are around the same pace and is slow...... so traditional la.. U know.. its the most traditional..(i feel la) church I've been to lohs.. Plus the Choir is Super Duper Good lahs!!! Arhhs!!! SO NICE!!.. makes me feel so homey in the church.. a bit like maybe in west minister abbey or something like tt sort la.. ^_^ I should attend mass there when I'm working on Sunday and maybe perhaps I'll join the choir if I can.. lolx.. *_* lolz..

Had my Grade 8 Theory Exam yesterday.. Finally no more class.. LOLz.. well.. hmm.. its tough ya know.. I took 1hr to complete my 1st qn la.. I nearly freaked out coz I can't really see the connection.. grrr... but 2nd qn was not bad.. 3rd.. hmm.. jus do wadeva i can.. 4th and 5th qns are not tt bad too.. can do la... hopefully no careless mistakes la.. seriously.. I didnt haf time to check.. coz I took quite long loh... haiz.. I better pass..

After exam didn't feel like home.. so decided to drop by orchard maybe for a while..coz chinatown is so near orchard.. lol.. buddenz I met my friends for a movie instead.I've been dying to catch a movie anywayz.. LOLz.. We watched The Prestige, its was not too bad until the technical fault.. seriously.. it kinda spoil it loh.. After the show I didn't feel happy la.. dunno why.. maybe coz of the truth of everything loh.. and I got the learning points of the show.. lol..

Tired day.. Slept like a log after I reach home...

|*25th Oct' 06*|

Ok.. this is so.. Frustrating.. See.. Pple.. can u'all pay attention next time and so as not to be blur.. I'm not pointing fingers but sometimes somethings are at piority.. Ohh man.. Its confusing everyone.. and I'm worried.. see it's not fair for other pple to get different info or get into the muddles we've put ourselves in so unfortunately.. It's NOT nice either alright.. I feel bad seriously coz this is jus not the way WE work u knoe.. I believe we're much capable of better planning and efficiency rite.. Gosh!!..
Frowning..>.<>NOT the 1st time. =\

Enough said for now.. Grrrr....

|*24th Oct' 06*|

Another Public Holiday and I spend it at home Again..... I feel so restless la..haiz.. Woke up late again...(well, its not all the time tt i get to slp tt much u knoe..=X), had lunch, study for theory exam this saturday..>.<, den I doze again.. such a bump.. lols.. sigh.. See... the problem when I spend the whole day at home, I'm restless. Yea I know I should study, but I'll find something to drink ( frm milk ->soya bean milk->juice ), study.. den zZzz... Ok.. I'm just plain lazy when I spend the whole day at home.. =X

|*22nd Oct' 06*|

wAh Piang ehhhs.... I dunno wat's happening inside me now.. xin luan liao...so tu ran la...dunno to laugh or cry or scream.. hmm.. wah piang... a bit paranoid now.. =\

|*12th Oct' 06*|

Geee.... I cant believe I'm awake right now and blogging. I'm going to the East tmr la.. and its takes like dunno how long to get there.. lolz.. I tell you I'm dead tired. I'm feeling really tired, but I'm not sleeping. My eyes feel liek shutting, but my brain and fingers are still working.. wahahaha... !!! That explains the dark circles I haven underneath my eyes huh.. grr... I feel super sian lo.. Work is tiring, and I'm going back to school frequently again! and sch starts like next week? Makes it worse. I just want to slack with my friends, hang out, window shopping, chit chat, catch a movie maybe? jus blah.. u noe.. happy time..Damn Tired... =_=

|*11th October' 06*|

Alright!! I'm TIRED!!! The weather is super duper warm... the Air is like still.... and My air- con just fails to give out cool air...=.=

Wen to work this afternoon, den some stocks come, so do stock check. Though got some confusions but manage to sort everything out in order. Then boss ask me to arrange the new bags, as in bags to pack the stuff tt customer bought la.. gud quality not plastic de. heavy lo.. coz its cloth ma.. peng.. 4 bags.. pack it in the store.. its damn near, but the bags are heavy la.. sian.. Actually my manager 1 to help me de, but the boss says I can do it, so yea.. =\ By the time I pack finish evetrything 3 hrs has passed la.. and I'm perspiring lo.. haiyo...

Went for late lunch.. came back continue serving again lo.. today dunno why but very hectic leh.. cannot rest de lo.. pengz.. onli when closing arh.. yea.. sit down and rest.. manager ask me clean floor I say dun1 lo.. can't believe I said that la.. but I defiance lo.. very tired la.. den feet hurts like nobody's business la.. and I cut myself like twice today.. again.. dunno how also la.. damn sian already lo.. i think sunday I'll be cleaning up liao.. =.= nvm..

Personal note:

hmmm... well.. my fren actually have passes to mos tmr night, which the event is organise for tertiary students and so we haf free entry. but 1st my dad dunno wad I talking about, and when he knows he nvr strongly reject but still reject, coz he request I take some rest. =.= Alrite..=\
Nvm.. actually tt's not the 1st, welll anyway.. 1 of my fren actually persuade me not to go.... (alrite, I dun think I shld post the details here though..=p) coz when we're overseas I also wanted to club.. haiz.. Well since like that den I dun think I'm meant to go this time round too bah.. if not later something happen den die arhs.. sigh.. be gud gerl ok?

BIG Sigh...

|*3rd Oct' 06*|

Here's some of the Pictures I took using my camera.

1stly the Food!!! This is NICE!!!

(dun mind the dates, didnt set it.=X)

I find these words interesting.... though I only know the 1 of them is "fu".

Nice huh.. =p Anywayz..

These are the few I find it nice to upload.

I'm still waiting for the interesting and nice pictures........ =p

|*30th Sept' 06*|

I'm awaiting for the PICS taken during the Trip in Korea!!!! ohh manz.. Some of the pics are really nice..I want them... Awaiting... =\

|*29th Sept' 06*|

I'm Back!!! wheee!!!

1st time flying overseas with friends, alone without parents. Hmmm.. it's a chance to learn to be independant. =) No one to wash dishes and clothes for you, no one nagging you about your passport, wallet, camera,phone,etc. Must look after yourself and look out for each other all the time. I felt weird initially coz its my parents sending me off instead of the other way round, and I felt like a musician coz I brought the cello along. LOLz..The experience is really fun!!! Hehs.. Well of course cannot be homesick la.. LOLz.. For 5 days, I'm ok. =)

1st impression when I reach South Korea, ITS REALLY LIKE JAPAN!!! The streets, the weather, the layout of the place, the language too.=.= The feeling is the same loh. After landing, the bus took us to a resting place, but 1st we went to get some food, after that we found out that the resting place is actually a public bath.. MY Gudness!!! O.o Everyone was freaking Shocked! lolz.. I was too, didnt expect that. There's public bath, sauna,gym and sleeping rooms and areas. At 1st everyone was too shock to go for it, but after thinking since we're there might as well give it a shot. LOLz... For me I've bathed in a hot spring in Japan before so it's similar just that I went alone. yea.. =p

1st day nothing much, after resting, we went to Namsan Park. I wasnt really paying attention, so yea.

2nd day we went to the Demilitarized Zone a.k.a DMZ tour. Its actually the border between South Korea and North Korea. There's four tunnels that linked between the 2 countries. Not going to explain it here. The waiting place for us to get approval has a small theme park, so we went to take the Pirate's Ship. LOLz.. The entire period is super funny, if only it was recorded.. wahaha!! shhh.. =X

We got the approval and went to the DMZ, we went to walk the 3rd tunnel. Very deep underground, cold, and low. Being an avg height is still not too bad. =X Going down is easy, coming up is challenging. =)

After that, we had some time for shopping.

We had Ginseng Chicken for Dinner. Delicious!!! ^_^

3rd day we had a performance, visited the place selling amethyst, ginseng products, kimchi making and trying on the traditional costume. Trying out the costumes was hilarious! After that we went shopping.

4th day morning, the event wasn't right, was messed up, well yea, den afternoon we decided to go straight to Lotte World. Prepare for performance, was not bad, best of all 3, and we played in the theme park!! Whoo!! Roller Coaster!!! wahaha! I didnt have guts to try the Gyrodrop, I knoe I'll have an aftermath. but Rollar Coaster was great!!!
After tt we went for late night shopping, actually wanted to go clubbing/pubbing but every1 decided to shop instead coz there wasn't enough time and there's jus SO many things.

Reached the Apartments at 12:30am. I didnt knoe the guys are coming up to have supper, well I didnt buy any food, and I was dead tired so I slept 1st. So noisy yet still can sleep.. well u knoe.. good thing I wasn't bullied....=\

Last day we went to the palace, Folk Museum and Bluehouse. Everyone didnt have enough slp. Wasnt paying attention.. lolz.. Then we left Seoul on the way to the airport. Long journey, every1 is sleeping lohs. We reach the place near airport, to have lunch, den dutyfree shopping, mainly foodstuff. I bought quite a no. of different flavoured seaweeds, some crackers and other food. Nice though..=)

Well, 5 days in Seoul, seriously I regret that I didnt write down when and where we went on the 5 days, coz now I nearly forgot wad happen, especially those interesting and funny happenings. It's because of these people that's why this trip is so fun. =) All these memories can only be kept inside me, they're just unique and priceless. =)

THANK YOU Peeps for making this trip wonderful and memoriable!!!

Hmmm.. Reb is Happy though! ^_^

Shall end off here.

|* 20th Sept' 06*|

I'm sorry guys, esp for those going for the xchange trip. I know I was kinda hard on u guys, for everything like practices/rehearsals just to get things in order. Yea, I had a hell lot of things on my head, Work load jus keep coming to me at the wrong period of time. I dunno why, perhaps jus the devil acting up, yea..

I wanted to settle some stuffs 1st before I leave tmr, but apparently I dun think I'm able to. Well, the impt thigns come 1st. Performances overseas now is my Top piority. Other admin stuff I will do when I return. I know my list of things to do. I know I haf to clear my datelines. No one but God is in control of everything. If the devil is acting up on me, den I just have to pull myself up and be strong and not be teared down by it. I have no 1 to report to, I know my datelines, I will do it, but now its jus not the time since the schedules are already so tight. Do not Test me. I have my right to make my decision and complete my tasks. Dont make me feel forsaken and forgotton. Stop all this, I have my right to go about doing everything as I plan to complete.

Oh Lord You've searched me,

You know my way;

Even when I fail You,

I know You love me.

Your holy presence Surrounding me

In every season,

I know You love me;

I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee,

Where Your blood was shed for me,

Theres no greater love than this.

You have overcome the grave,

Your glory fills the highest place,

What can separate me now?

You go before me,

You shield my way,

Your hand upholds me;

I know You love me.

And when the earth fades,

Falls from my eyes,

And You stand before me,

I know You love me;

I know You love me.

You tore the veil,

You made a way

When You said that it is done.

-Hillsong

|*13th Sept' 06*|

I WANT TO OWN A PAIR OF CHACO SANDALS!!!!! ZX/2 SPICY W8! LOLZ!!=p

2nd Day of work today. Not too bad actually. The 1st day was a bit gong gong, coz need to know where the stocks are, plus I jus know the 'manager' and a colleague. Not too bad, after a while can break the ice le.. lolz.. Plus is quite fun lo.. wahahazZ, but muz remember to serve customer la.. hahahazZ!

Learn those basic stuff needed to know, but sad thing is I dunno where everything is, and those specific stuff that pple look for coz, 1:i'm new, 2 I dunno rock climbing or trekking's equipments and blah blah blah. Yea.. a bit paiseh, but got 'manager' there, 'pro' lolx..=X

1st day I learnt where the trekking shoes for stored, and the models available. 2nd day I know the models of the bags and the stocks. Plus the clothes, basically jus survey the store room loh.. lolz.. and label the new sandals. Learnt quite a lot abt diff kinds of feet. What kind of feet and the kind of shoe fittings that suits. Kinda complicating, a bit too much to absorb in 1 such a short time, but can serve and gain knowledge lo. The Chaco sandals super comfortable. It cost a bomb to me la.. LOLz.. but it's very durable. Tried a pair today, lolz.. den learn to adjust the straps. hmmm,

I'm thinking whether or not to work on tues lo, b'day still work, lolz.. den wed got briefing also thinking 1 to go work after briefing anot. but if I dun work other pple get to work and I earn less... haiz.. its this part that is sian...=.=" plus got 2 events coming in the next 2 weeks la.. and school's starting again. aiyoo.. sighh..

|* 3rd September' 06*|

I went to Church this morning as usual, just that I felt tired and wore flip flop with T-shirt and Jeans. My goodness lahs.. I just felt so uncomfortable coz of the flip flop. There's no right or wrong, just than I have other choices, so yea. Anywayz, I learnt quite a number of things during Homily. Example why this is done and all. I wonder why they didn't teach during Sunday school, well, maybe mine wasn't taught but other did ehhs??

Hmm.. I need a job, but there's always something in between that blocks my paths. Hopefully I'll be sucessful. My secondary sch chem teacher actually recommended me to try relief teaching. Lolz.. Shocked!!! Well.. I'm considering it though..near my house, on the way to NP also.. lolz .. will see about that.. Lolz...!! Once an Assumptionite, now an ex-Assumptionite, nice word horx.. =p

|*31st Aug' 06*|

Went to AES tis morning.. Visit teachers loh... well... some of the good teachers left le... so sad lahs... haiz.. Anywayz... I wish them well...=) Saw my ex-classmates and those still studying.. Manage to do some catching up..=) Ooh... my Chemistry teacher actually suggested I do relieve teaching la... Lolz.. simply cant believe it.. LOLz... I jus dun think so lehhhs...=\ Considering I see the students like that... alamak.. kk.. nth bad la.. arhhs... shhh.. =x

Went haf Katong Laksa at Holland Village with WX.. hehs.. talk talk talk... den we left to our different destination. I went home,call up some numbers, sleep. Went to sch in the evening, den XX actually told me nobody is coming...=.=" k.. den we chit chat.. I spoke of Liquid Kitchen.. den Glo cant ta han so we went there.
I was broke lahs... haiz.. but jus go there lo... wanted to drink de... but so ex la... sian.. plus i broke.. nvm.. next time.. Ordered the food there, darn nice loh... ohh man... the food is ard the same price as swensens but is a lot nicer.. lolz.. I LOVE the ambience there la... and teh songs they play rite... all the nice nice songs that I used to listen lahs!!!OHH!!! hahaha...kk... den we were talking lohs.... den den surprise surprise lahs.. hahas.. geee...=p

Rebecca is HAPPY TONIGHT!!! =P

|*30th Aug' 06*|

Went to sch kinda early yesterday.. basically to settle some stuff.. paid a visit to SDAR.. kays.. den had xx's help to take out the cello and double bass books.. den arrange the books properly.. hmm.. jus for the time being la horx.. okays..
hmmm... ha... ehh... after prac went to eat lo.... its been quite some time since i did this again.. lolz... kays... but tis time with a diff bunch of pple... the usual bunch now.. hahazZ.. Had Fun la.. so farnie ... ok... I've been laughing like mad tis few days... I laughed a lot on monday...no wonder there's sand in my mouth..=\ hehs..
Happy day!!! ^_^

|*28th Aug' 06*|

Wheee... went to Sentosa today.. heh hehs.. met xx, glo and cas, the other 3 came later.. Went to haf brunch.. haha..=X den left for sentosa lo.. I tot it was gonna rain la... but it didn't... it was quite sunny when we reach Palawan beach.. so started tanning.. wahahaha!!! hmmm... tis part part parts... skip bahhs... lolz... =x
Went to get some food at 1+ like tt... Wahhs.. 1st time I find it difficult to write a post la... =.=" kk... hmmm.. chit-chat.. hehe haha.. den went cycling lo..
Took the Jungle trail route.. den continued to the mythology trail... but den... suddenly lost track of the marker halfway thru the mythology trail.. weird lo.. its led us to the main road la.. weird... found it dangerous so we cycled back to the route we came lo...sadness.. =\ where's the road marker?? Actually the day aint as bored as it's written la.. in fact it was V fun lah... got interesting and funny things that happen lohs..
After that den went back to school lo... for meeting... den others practice.. knew we'll be late la... so we ta bao food.. went to wait for 61... but.. wait for over 20mins but none came... and it's 7pm! so.. we decided to take a cab..hai..kays.. reached sch in 20mins.. hai.. rushed up and realise no1 in classroom.. dunno wad to say la..also dunno how i felt tt time also..=.= pengz..nvm..ended..

|*23rd Aug' 06*|

Watched Singapore Idol just now. Well, this week, hmmm.. Asian Pop.. I was excited coz some Chinese songs will be sung, but.. unfortunately, the chinese dun really sound natural. Well, I doubt I'm any better.. lolz..=X They didnt manage to blow me away, well, it's kinda difficult for a Singapore Idol performance to blow me away.. but but but.. that malay song from Hady Mirza did just that. Unfortunately I couldn't catch the title/artist. Although I don't understand what is sung, but that performance just made it, how should I say.. hmm.. it's just different, it created an impact, the performance touched me somehow.. ehhs? hehs... seldom get that from Singapore Idol performances.. wahahazZ! Not bad ehhs.. It's not like when a chinese who sang a chinese song but dont sound natural.. u noe.. u noe wad i mean...? LOLz.. nvm.. go figure..hehs..=p Oohh... Anyone happen to have that song??? Can give me.. Hee..=X

Cheonging for tmr's paper.. Last paper, last academic hurdle for now.. and den a sigh of relieve.. Better don't disappoint me...Lolz..! There are things waiting for me to do, to complete.. so yea... my hardisk still can't be lazy.. yea.. bleahs.. Awaiting for those possible excitement to fill my holidays.. heh hehs.. =p

|*21st Aug' 06*|

Today...

Felt so much more RELAXED!!! The Toughest paper has ended!!! Plant Pathology and Entomology..lolz..Nice module, but way TOO much to study.. Ok.. 1 more to go.. Plant Biochemistry and Physiology.. hehs.. Fun..=p K.. anywayz.. Can't wait for Holidays lahs.. Hopefully have some Exciting and Fun stuffs coming up on my Calendar ehhs.. =p

Didn't know what to do after exams, my friends were dicussing about the paper, I just wasn't really interested, coz I know I'll get pek chek..though I did read through but not in detail.. SEE..!!! K.. nvm..=(

Just feel like Slacking, Chit-chatting, crapping, dun feel like going home straight.. so.. We went to Lib to grab some bubble tea and coffee..

Initially I really dunno how to react, to or not.. hahs.. I didn't la.. coz it'll be weird.. disturbing bahs.. so did nothing lahs..

Was disappointed.. but was happy after that.. hehs.. jus so unfortunate that my phone low batt and auto turn off..=.="

Today ended well.. so yea.. =))

Saturday...

Wanted to study for PPE on monday.. but I slept my whole afternoon off.. can't believe it.. Such a Pig!! LOLx..
Went to BPP to meet xx and glo for dinner, so unfortunate I tot I was late, but they are later.. lolz.. nvm.. finally settle for dinner at kopitiam, but need to buy card, so.. we went to Swensens instead.. I wanted my Ice-cream.. but.. no 1 eat with me.. so I settled for a chocolate float.. den went bowling after dinner.. Cool.. been quite some time since I last bowled..lolz.. Not too bad la.. better than last time.. hahazZ..=p
Don't feel like going home yet.. so we went to Starbucks to slack.. Went there to chit-chat.. den bought a Frappacino for myself... My gudness la... I'm already full and I had my chocolate float and yet I still bought a Grande Raspberry Frappacino la!!!! With Whipped Cream somemore.. Manz.. It's SO Fattening lahs.. alamak...
Well.. seriously, studying for exams can make me fatter lo... pengz.. keep wanting to eat.. and its those finger food.. faintz..=.="
Had fun nonetheless!!!!

|*15th Aug' 06*|

Hmmm.. so what exactly is happening right now? Weird huh.. Is it coz I made you disappointed? coz I turn down the invitation again? I'm sorry.. really.. I would like to give myself a chance to go.. I knoe I have nothing to be afraid of, but its just some internal barrier that I need to work out myself hopefully with the help of my friend. If I didn't give myself a chance, I wouldn't have gone to the event.=)

Ok.. I guess you had your problems too.. Chill yea.. Chill.. Jia You!! =)

|*14th Aug' 06*|

Ohh Man..!!! I can't wait to finish my last 2 projs and STUDY!!! ITS FINISHING SOON.. COME ON!!!! =.="

And Ohh!! Dear System Pls return to ur normal working condition can..!! Haiz.. spare me the Agony of this pass few days.. Pls... =.="

Hmmm.. suddenly feel like blogging. Actually I'm currently rushing to complete my project, but I suddenly miss my ex-classmates.. u noe, those pple from AES 4/2 '04. For dunno wateva crap reasons ok.. Pls dun think that I'm crazy.. LOLx. Well pple, u know who u are..no need to name it out... wahahah..=p Really horx.. Never seen some of them for like dunno since when..=\ esp those not in NP. even for those who are in NP, I seldom see them too.. sAd..=( To think back the 2 yrs.. not too bad afterall rite.. hahazZ.. =p Big sigh..

TQ Shout out!: How haf U'all Been???!! LOLx.. =p

|*9th Aug' 06*|

Projects projects and projects.. My mom said that my projects are never ending...=s coz everytime she thought I was sleeping, I said no, I'm doing my project. Haiz.. dumb dumb project.. to do a contract.. =.= nvm.. I dun even know how to explain it. Can't wait for it to be over!!!

There's quite a number of thins that happen this past few weeks, but I don't really remember them all to type it all here.

I just finish reading the book Les miserables. I can say it is the NICEST, MOST TOUCHING book I've read so far. You have to read it to understand.. hahahazZ!! I really hope to be able to watch the Live performance of this whole musical production. Really.. There's this line near the end of the book when Valjean told Javert : 'To hate one must judge and only God can judge a Man's heart.' This really make me feel ... Wao.. Anywayz.. this is a Great Book. =)

When to pray the Rosary with Merz yesterday evening. I dun really know how so I learnt yesterday. I feel peace in my heart. =) I began to understand why, and many other things. I also began to realise that everytime I go to mass every sunday and listen to the homily.. I graduately realise that I understand it and it makes me reflect on my life to whatever was said.

After that we went to Esplanade to watch the Fireworks display. I manage to catch some videos but unfortunately I deleted some accidentally coz I mistook them as pictures...=.=" Ohh well.. it's still Best to watch it with your own eyes. =)

Something that I've been thinking...

I wonder what it is.. Merz wateva u teased me about ystd somewhere inside me wish it is true.. haha..=p but den again, it getting confusing right now. =s U hafta come!!!LOLx!! =p i hope it won't be awkward...

Seriously.. this is a secret, I don't wanna bring it out, coz I dun wanna put too much thought in it. I can't afford to right now. you helped me in many ways, u might think its nth much, but it has been an encouragement to me. It's like God sent some1 to help me, not directly though. I didn't give it any thought, I just recieve it. but I gave it some thought recently, which is what I feared, coz realising somethings might not be a good thing yea.. something abt yesterday night make me think, am i giving a disappointment? that i might be going to another direction instead jus coz i dont want to be known.a red light. which is wad i dun wanna give but it seems tis way. or am i thinking too much. perhaps tts not wad it meant.

|*25th July' 06*|

I've been trying to keep track of time, BUT I still can't.. -.= Projects are dueing in like 3 weeks, and I haven't really started in them lahs. As for those in the middle of it, I'm like lost. What's wrong with me? I haven't even really started studying for my modules lohs.. and exam is like when..3wks?!!! Why aren't I like when I was a Yr 1 when I chiong for Everything... What's the Problem NOw??? =S

Fear, I MUST go through this Semester. MUST! Help!!! =\

I guess I'm above the Suface already. Very Glad! =) Have been Happy this pass few weeks =D Just some part was kinda pissed off. I guess my tolerance level have been improved for the pass 2 yrs? Pple who had known my temper says that I'm better than before.. LOLx.. Good to Hear. DOn't Test Me..!!! *Turned Off*

Have been Happy.. but to that there's also fear which I have felt. Which I cannot explain why I'm fearing and What it really is... =\

|*19th July' 06*|

Today is 1 'farnie' day ehhs.. LOLx.. I dunno which word to use to describe lahs.. Do I look that different when I wear a skirt or something? I've got like 5 exclaimation today.. My frens were like shock or something, den dun regconise me from afar loh.. farnie sehs..LOLx.. =\ A ca cher also..alamak..=.-

Sighh.. I broke my promise to A ca tt I'll be back to join them after Virtuoso, particularly for the competition like tmr? But due to some bad times, emotional setbacks I wasnt in the right mood to even sing, and I avoided the pple just so I won't be asked or something. But today I finally went to see them, was kinda glad to see them, very happy indeed.=D Teacher saw me dun really regconise me la.. in skirt, red specs..LOLx.. hmm.. he said I broke my promise, I didnt go back.. That struck me seriously.. sObz. I just couldn't, didn't have the courage to face it. Kinda sad and regretful of not being part of the competitors, which being in it to me is an important opportunity to me as it is singing. I brought things upon myself which is partly my wrong doing so, all I can do is go support U'all and return yea =) Hopefully I'll be back to my old standard and perform with U'all yea.. =D

|*16th Jly' 06*|

"Only when we are able to see our true selves, only then we'll understand why Jesus is in our Lives."

- Church Parish Priest -

"Pray for Repentance, and miracles will be experienced."
- Church Parish Priest -

"Faith without works is like a bird without wings; though she may hop around on earth, she will never fly to heaven."
- Joseph Beaumont -

[Jesus said,]
"Whoever remains in me will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me."
- John 15:5 -

"My grace is all you need, for my power is strongest when you are weak."
- 2 Corinthinans 12:9 -

"If a radio's slim fingers can pluck a melody out of the night and toss it over mountains and the sea; if the petal- white notes from a violin are blown across the desert and the city's din... why should mortals wonder if God hears prayers?"
- Marvin Drake -

Are we still searching for someone for whom our heart longs? "You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you."
- St. Augustine -

Faith is a Gift of the Father... The Gift of Faith unites us with Christ. Our union with Christ enables us to profess the Truth.

|*11th July' 06*|

I know I should just accept what is given to me everytime of my life and not ask for too much or whateva, but for things that are just around the corner, are we entitled to get them by our own efforts? Although it's not given to us directly? I mean not everything it so easy to get rite, we still hafta work for it rite? But then the thing rite now is, i have to give other pple chance. I cannot just get what I want just for myself. Must share, everyone has a chance to do anything, so why do I feel sad and disappointed. Well maybe coz I've always felt invisible, I know that just sounds so impposible rite, yea.. hmm..I dunno how to say bahs.. haiz.. Anywayz.. everything is done in such a way that there's a reason behind it, whether got benefit a not lahs..

Above is 1 thing troubling me, here, there's another 1. I don't think I should really care or think about this too much, coz I know it might not do me good. hahazZ. Oh well, so what is it now arhs, why is it coming to me like this? I have enough on my mind to handle rite. hmm.. Some1 tell me what's happening in me can?

|*7th July' 06*|

Aye aye.. Kor kor go NS liao.. 2 weeks in bmts.. Aiyo.. No 1 watch World Cup final with me le..=\ And the house will kinda be quiet, coz no 1 ka chiao me..=X hahazZ.. nvm it's ok de...=x Wonder how he look like when bo tak..=X Will definitely miss him. God Bless.. TC worx!

Hmmm.. Didn't go today coz need to do project things..=( Den just now reach home, my mom immediately booked me for 1st Sept le.. coz that's when my bro grads from bmts. Kinda excited lehs...=X Wahs.. such a busy sister, need to be booked 2 months in advance...=X Can't miss this chance anymore le.. So dun plan things on tt day kays...=X I'm booked!! Impt event. LOLx!

As usual.. Tiring day for me.. Everything starts piling on top of my head. The more its coming, the more I don't feel like doing.. aiyo!!! How.. Why been through so many cycles of these I still have the same kinda reaction cannot cope properly de.. Why arhs?!!Haiz..

Lead Me to My Light Path...

|* 3rd July' 06*|

Oh Gosh!! I dropped my beloved Specs on the floor lahs.. Slipped from the head somemore...wat impact.. =( And I got a pimple.. Oh MY... jus when my pimple cream no longer exist.. -.=

Nothing much happen today bahs.. jus feel the same uncertainty inside me that has been rooted in me all this while.

Not Myself anymore..

"Why Give in to Fear instead of the Power of God?"
Have Faith!

I suppose I fell and lost to fear coz I didn't have faith, just like Peter. Which is what/why I end up now.

I wonder why I'm still crying when I'm alone, when I'm going to sleep, Crying my to sleep practically everynight or day. I doubt I drink enough everyday to replenished the fluid I lose every single day. I pray in church, I'm fighting back tears.. What's wrong with me? What's my problem. I don't even understand. Such Troubled Teenager.

|*28th June' 06*|

Watched "My big fat idea" on channel 5 just now. I think my friend is only featured maybe in the later episodes bahs. Wahs.. I didn't know there is Musical Theatre Society in Singapore lahs. Can I join? I wanna sing and act in it.. Haiz.. Somehow I kinda doubt my ability to act and sing in a story. Why no confidence? maybe because I've never try before. I want to sing again!!!

Suddenly got the urge to improve my finger technique again. To upgrade my piano skills, so that I can sight read better and play like what I hear from recordings.. lolx.. If its even close enough. Hopefully. Maybe because after hearing the 2 piano concertos, I want to practice more.
Maybe practice till to the point that I am able to learn a piece faster, and have the confidence to play or try anything when requested. Maybe perhaps till to the point where I can accompany a group of string instruments. Wah.. suddenly have such aim. I want to go towards that, perhaps it'll take me to another level. =)

I wanna do something related to all these...

|*27th June' 06*|

When things happen and it all comes back to me. A sudden sadness washed over me. Those tough times that had been through.

Did I see wrongly? If not why is it then?

Is this some sort of retribution or something? For what I might have been.
Am I being Bad mouthed?

Is anyone laughing at me, for tasting my own medicine? To feel so helpless like what had been felt before.

Am I suppose to blame myself for everything that has happened?
Why does it make me look bad?

I dun feel it anymore, not like before. u aren't there like u said u would. I feel alone. Why is that when things start falling apart, everything esle just seems to follow suit?

Where is my Support? Where? No where?
Alone to clear up my own mess.

Aren't I as deserving as the rest? Is there a bad spell or something?=\
Why?
Haven I been through enough?

Left Out. Dislikeful Person?

|*Tak Boleh Tahan*|

Haiyo, Buai Da Han... Why am I so W-O-L-S....-.= Didn't take Mabia's suggestion to alight at CC. Still got that blanked reaction lahs.. Dots!! Only after that den I realise I cna just alight there, cross over to the LRT station to top-up my card den take the lrt down to petir den i can conviently walk the pasar malam to grab some food like my mom suggested den walk home.. Aiyo.. Instead I took to the interchange, den walk towards the other direction to top-up my card at the lrt station den walk back home...-.= And I didn't get some food and end up walking home with gastric pain stomach.. Dots!!!... -_-" so Dumb..-.-

"Men of little faith, why do you doubt?" Mathew 14:31

|*24th June*|

Wheee.. Back to S'pore le. Went to Sofitel Palm Resort on Friday morning. It just an hour plus away from the checkpoint. =) Kinda Excited lehs...=X Don't think any1 misses me bahs horx. My purpose of visit is to attend The Student Leader Seminar. To learn how to survive as a committee member.. LOLx.. Actually not like that lahs..

On friday itself, we're taught to differentiate between an invoice and a receipt. There's so many kind of receipt. Actually I did understand a little, like what must be looked for on a receipt itself, but I dun think I know which is an invoice and whether it has been paid anotx lahs. Also we get to spot the missing details required for a ticket for sale.

After lunch we were split into our perspective categories which NPS is under the Cultural and Arts Group. We are seated in 4 grps to discuss and plan an event to make NP a vibrant place, rich with culture and arts. And also what we want to see from our club and all the arts grp in the long run.

We were also given a small explaination and elaboration of NPSU. On what forms the council, and all.. actually I still dun fully understand how it all works lahs..-.=

Suppose to have an actibity called Dream Weaver, dunno what is that, but was cancelled, not sure why. Anyhow, we were all very delighted! heh, so we went for dinner den roam around the place. Was kinda disappointed coz we didnt get to swim, as the timing jus dun match, and the recreation euipment jus dun rock at all. They're kinda faulty, and the place closes at 9pm. Early huh. I think ard 830pm we can't play le lohs, coz they need to pack.-.= What seh... Sad-ed. With all that recreation cancelled, we really got nothing to do. I don't know what the rest did to entertain themselves though.

We went to sit on the pool side chairs and talk, and feeding me mosquitoes.-.= den wo went to the bar to watch soccer. Got big screen tv mahs.. hahahazZ. Bought some snacks to go along. Thought that Spain might score quite a no., but so unfortunately they only scored 1.-_-" Didn't stay up for the next match, which could be more exciting. Afraid that the next day will be too tired. so after a while went back to the hotel room. Rest.

Me 1st time at the hotel although I'm a member. coz I can't play golf in the greens so didnt get the chance to go there with my dad and bro. Anyhow, the room was not bad le, toliet big eh, i like, lol, got tub somemore. wahahazZ! My Roomie is Mabia. We're like so excited on the way to the room lahs.. lolx. Anyhow, I expected 2 single beds but it was a King sized 1 instead. Whao!O.o The view was facing the golfing green, not bad ehs.

1st time go resort under school with frens seh.. lolz. Feels like I'm in a luxurious camp. LOLx! Think I'm the only 1 in my family who 'd stayed there bahs. Wheee... =x

Anyhow, I need to do some reflection on what's learnt there, coz there was no time to do it there, and also need to answer some questions asked. Also hafta disseminate what I've learnt there to the rest of the Committee members and also need to write a report regarding the event. Hmmm.. Very sleepy now.

The bus I was in on the way back to S'pore was Super Comfortable! The seats were adjustable for sleeping with leg rest too, too bad the leg rest didnt work for me, but nevertheless, I slept solidly till the M'sian custom.

If only.................................................

|*24th June' 06*|

gang cai yi lu zou hui jia de shi, kan jian you yi pai de tent. wo xiang, zai guo ji tian, ye jain ba sha jiu kai shi le. bu zhi zen me de, nao dai li ti chu le yi ge jian yi, jiu shi, song wo hui jia de lu tu, ke yi sun bian he ni yi ji guang yi guang lu bian de tan zi, dan ke xi, ni yi jing le kai le wo. na yi shi, wo you gan dao shi luo le, shang xin de zou hui jia. wo zhen bu ming bai, wei sen me wo yi zhi hui you zhe yang de xiang fa. jiu hui hen xiang he ni fen xiang zhe xie shi ke. mei dang you yi xie he peng you chu qu you wan de whi hou, dou hui xiang he ni fen xiang. wei sen me wo na me de xiang nian ni... wei sen me. wo zhi dao ying wei de bu xiao xin, er fa sheng. wei se me ren jiu shi zai shi qu le cai hou hui ne..? =(

|*20th June' 06*|

Can I just leave? Why am I still here? Why keep me when I'm just a Nobody in everyone's life? A black sheep whom people see when I'm around.

What have I done to deserve all this happenings that had been thrown towards me? Am I so Not Deserving? Why do I do things which I know should be avoided. (even right now.)

Is my life being bad mouth? Why am I so disliked and hated? Why do I feel this way when I thought everything is Ok? Why are things taken away from me just like that when I thought everything was going so well and acceptable? Why do I feel like this all over again? Why am I going through all this all over again? Why do I feel So Lost and Depress again?

Will I find Happiness that I deserve? Can I find it? When I find it, will this happen? Will it last forever till I walk on?

Why Do I Hurt them so carelessly?
Why do I drop things or lose them so carelessly?
Why? WHy?? WHY???

Is directly showing my dislike to some1 so dear so cruel?
Is hurting some1 so dear by pointing out my dislike a sin?

Am I being shaken by this 'bad thing' because I'm not as strong in my faith as usual or because I'm feeling and thinking this way?

Why do I feel so lonely, empty, lost?
Will I ever understand?

Why can others live without all this hindering them all the time?
Why Can't I have the same thing too?

What is He trying to tell me?
Am I that different?

Wheee.. I knew the Aussies would win...wahahazZ... =X Japan played well though..lolz.. Japan no. 7.. what's his name eh.. I forgot le.. he's got the actor kinda look leh..looke a bit like 1 of the actors..=X gud lookin eh..kekex..

Wah.. America vs Czech... Czech very powerful buddenz America is like...=\ Their finishing no gud leh...-.= Boring match.. American ranked 4th in the world?? Is tt a joke or something??!! lolz... *pEngz*..

I can't wait for England Match!!! England!! Erikson dun be too cautious can..lolz.. =X

|*11th June' 06*|

Ahh... Virtuoso XIII!!! Can say it was a blast!! hee.. My 1st time performing @ VCH!! Exciting eh..lolz.. Such a grEAt Experience..=) Thought I would be nervous, but den was not lahs..though I was afraid that something might go wrong for me lahs..=.- ahahha.. Schedule was tight, had to make use of the time waiting to do other things. eg, dinner, changing, make-up, wateva wateva... Took quite a lot of pics.. Arhs.. I want a gud digital Camera...=.- Daddy Pls...=x.. LOLx..

Steinway & Sons Grand piano is good lahs..!!! Looks old buddenz the feeling and sound freaking gud. *ShuAng*! Plus played in VCH..even better..hehe.. 1st time on stage playing piano, ermx, gud thing it wasnt for a real performance, but jus for 'fun' tt kind, if not arhs..can Jam.. otherwise was alright though it wasn't as gud as practice..=\

Overall performance can say it's better than practice le.. but I felt that some songs I'm in isnt tt great though.. coz of rushing or wad, but managed to come back, hopefully it wasnt known lahs...ahaha... =x The impact was goOd though..=) I EnjOyed MySelf!!!=)

Ejoyable fun day, all the practices and drills are made worthy. Hee.. Good to see every1 dressing up for the event..LOLx..

Personal Thots:
Wasn't 100% for me though, could be and Will be if things were better and had not happened. If it was more natural.. =\

|*10th June' 06*|

Blogging now just to say that NPStrings Virtuoso 13th is Later!!! LOLx.. 1st ever major performance at such an historic place where famous pple have performed there b4..lolx.. BleAhz... Prays that everything goes smoothly.. Jia You PPLE. NPStrings Rules TONIGHT!!=)

|*6th June' 06*|

Haiz.. NM.. what kinda questions are those manz... It's either I didn't listen in class or wadsoever la.. -.= What are the 3 Legal set-ups for a Nursery, erms.. are we even told?? =\ and so many many things... dotx.. -.=||

Went to the clubhse to study, but not much went in. Don't know why lehs.. I got a lot inside my head on saturday why can't I jus now? Doze on and off.. played piano, den study, doze again..-.= Kept thinking of... it seems tt I've lost my inspirations, my support. ='(

On my way home got this idiot who keeps starring. Darn pissed off, never see girl in red specs b4 arh.. my face got thing mehs...stare wad stare.. Idiotx lehs.. plus walk the same way as me la.. Freaked me out lo.. kns.. Some dumb ass.. Better don't lemme see ur darn face again. Freaky...=.-||

|*Photos during heArts @ NP*|

Hey Peeps!!! Here are finally some pics to 'Brighten my Blog' LOLx..Taken during heArts @NP!


Me & DJ @ heArtsNP!!=)


LOLz.. erms... Lystra cao High?? =x


Me & Lystra! Notice the head of the stand infront
of Lystra's teeth, as if she's wearing braces lehs..=x


NPS peeps @ heArts @ NP =)


Hee.. Nice horx.. =))


Proudly Presents :
NPS 15th Management Committee.. hehe..=p


Hmm.. Reminds me of childhood leh..
Shou qian Shou..WahahazZ!Got Balloon somemore=)


Me & DJ again.. Diff Angle.. heee..=x


Opps I look off, tt's coz I landed already...-.=
Look @ those 2, jump so High.. got spring.. LOLx..


Me & XX!! We X'changed Specs..LOLz..
She said I look gay in hers...Do I? =

Me & Mabia!! Nice Pic hOrx!! =D

That's all for heArts @NP.. Sigh.. got 1 yi han.. nvr take pic with someone.. ='(

|*5th June' 06*|

1st CT paper today, can score de, but I kenna tricked and 4got some. haiz.. Tmr's paper nvr study.. sad-ed.. I kept playing piano.. how? -.= Now sleepy liaoz... I wonder wonder wonder.. hmmm... 0.O ...

|*4th June' 06*|

I'm glad tt I did Studied the whole day yesterday lahs...LOLx...my gudness lo.. today nvr study much lo..just can't absorb lahs... Went to church, go plaza a while, reach home, had lunch.. tried to study but slpt..=\ den got xx msg den gan chiong wake up search for songs..lolx.. played the piano for like 2hrs.. den watch tv la....-.-/.. den try to study.. at least got something into my head..lolx.. till now.. haiz.. Got distracted A lot! Kept thinking of U.. i don't know why.. read my notes... read read.. den slowly wonder to u.. I know I have to study.. but it just kept happening.. sigh... I guess I really Miss u.. I can't let go... All these time I managed to or force myself to focus on my class and club work, but I'm being to get distracted more nowadays.. It's still in me.. imprinted on my heart..I haven forgotten anything..

|*2nd June' 06*|

PM Test Today.. Wrote the Essay lo... I missed out 1 point, but hopefully whatever I wrote would answer the question.

Anywayz.. I don't know how I spent my rest of the day lahs kays..

Haiz.. I spill all those junks out. Make myself be hated or disliked. But if I don't feel I can drown.

Now CT period, means need to study, weekends too. Brings back lotsa stuff especially that particular day. Dang wo jie shou ning de yao chiu, dang wo men made a 'pact', fang xia wo de dan xin, wo men da ying le. Zhen de hen xiang nian, xiang le bu zhi bu jue jiu han xiang liew lei. Li bai tian ye lai xue xiao, yi qi du shu, yi qi pei ban ze dui fang, xiang shou.ke yi shuo lang man bahs..=x Duo me xi wang ke yi zai you ze shi jian. =( Mei dang wo xiang zhuo yi jian shi huo you ze me huo dong, di yi ke xiang yao fen xiang de ren jiu shi ni, xiang yao yi qi he zhuo de ye shi ni. Jiu shi bu zhi bu jue de di yi ke xiang dao de ren jiu shi ni. Wei she me hui ze yang ne.. hen xiang ni lo.. wo de se me ji hua dou hui you ni de cun zai.

|*29th May' 06*|

French Written Test today.. Hmmm.. I hope my letter writing isn't that bad. I forgot my Numbers. Should be alright bahs... Presentation wise, I missed out quite a lot. I didn't bring my Q Cards I guess..Grrr... Anywayz..I'll miss French Class.. =) Hope my French will improve or rather be remembered..kekex.

Went to the small bazzar under the convention centre, bought a pair of sandals.. daring colours, green velvet.. but was a bit faulty. Hope I've managed to fixed it =)

Met WX for lunch today.. Hee.. after soOo Long..wahahahazZ! Talk talk and crap..hee.. but den got limited time. sigh.. After that I headed to National Library to continue my research, I brought paper and pen plus my laptop this time round. Nearly couldn't find the book I really Need.. but found in just in time but made JY and Lystra waited for me..so Paiseh.. Anywayz.. Thanks Ya Gerls..=) I really like it A Lot.. Hee...=D

Rushed Back to school. Ate a quick Dinner, went for practice. Hmmm.. after today I felt kinda glad, happy or soft-hearted or wateva? The teasing and all, I felt kinda happy? or glad.. I noe i had tt face for a few sec but sorry, wateva seen outside doesn't mean the same felt inside. Not sure how to describe my feelings tonight, mixed, dunno how to describe. Really... Just better than other days I've been having. Tt agreed.

Guo le jing wan, wo gan dao xin wei, kai xin? xin luan? wo wu fa jie shi wo gan dao zen me yang. Zong zhi bi qian ji tian hai bu cuo ba.. =) Dan wo yi ran you ge yi han, na jiu shi wei shen me wo bu neng zi ran yi dian ne? wei shen me wo jiu shi yao gai zhu na biao qing.. haiyo... you na me kun nan huo nan shou ma..=.-

Shui ran suo fa sheng de dou bu hao chen shou, dan ni yi ran hai shi yi zhi zai wo de xin li cun zai ze. wo dui bi ci de gan qing hai shi yi yang de. nan dao zhen de mei jie guo ma? shi man miao mang huo shuo wo men kan bu jian wei lai, dan wo yi jie shou ning de yi qie, dan wei shen me ning mei you ne, er dao fang qi wo de di bu.. jing ran dou da ying shuo yi qi du guo ze xie feng cui yu da le, dan que ze yang de hou guo, wo dang ran bu ming bai, wo yi ding yao ming bai, wo bu fang qi, wo xiang jian qiang de yi ji zou ke yi ma..... hai...
yi ran yi zhi dou shi zai xiang nian ze......

|*27th May' 06*|

My day started just like my normal Saturday. Been late for class for the pass few saturdays..haiz.. Went to JE Library to search for some books, don't think it's enough, thinking of going to NL better.. hmmm...

Reached later than usual, to know that people didn't come for practice, it's like what the hell???!! Anywayz, think I might have found a better way of playing the melody. Haha.. More practice.. =)

Went to meet my ex classmates in town. Suppose to watch X-Men III, but the queue freaking long, and the evening shows were sold out, and 9pm @ orchard is freaking late, so didn't watch with the guys.. -.= Went to JP to watch the Da Vinci Code with L,M,ZY,GY. Wee.. so long nvr see my frens le.. Jeremy you changed A LOT!! lolx, become SO Fit..lolz.. Da Ma(WX) I still miss hanging out and throwing my baggage to you, LOLx.. At a point of time, I felt empty hearted coz ... Talked alot lo.. guess we really have a lot to catch up on..hahazZ.. Though most of us that came today are in the same school, but we seldom see each other. =\ butLeft early for JP.

The Da Vinci Code movie like kinda showing the bad side of Christianity lo..-.=" Haiz, plus it's like trying to weaken their faith or something. Be Strong! Anywayz, I was following till I started to drift at a point of time and got a bit confused. Its was kinda long, dunno why but I did Figid.
How I wish I'm as smart as the Robert guy in the movie to solve the riddles and codes of everything. And Unlocked myself, but I guess just like what happened, I'll still need some1 to free me huh...

NEXT: I Wanna Watch X-MEN III!!!

|*26th May' 06*|

Was an unlucky day... Class test kinda not success coz what I studied wasn't really tested.. -.= Then I hated what I saw, den got Gastric Pain. Though I ate le, but it still persisted till I got home. And so Unfortunately, I slipped and Fell on my way home, walking back with my right side wet and muddy.. Gud thing it was dark and no 1 was behind me and I managed to get up as quickly as I fell...-_-" Haiz..
What's Happening?

*24th May' 06*|

I WISH I WERE NEVER ALONE.

|*23rd May' 06*|

Skipped Practice to tonight. Never had I skipped practice just coz I need to complete my work and catch up with rest. But I though to myself why must stay coz of responsibility and pple can dun care, and end up struggling. =S Anywayz.. I also dont 1 to miss it de. Haiz.

I worked hard last semester, but unfortunately still not good enough to get at least an AD or an acheivement. Was close, but not close enough. And when I saw my modules this semester I kinda like it coz I though I'll be able to score for Science, but it was kinda spoiled coz of the happenings around me. I just 1 to get an acheivement once, ya I know its unusual for pple to have this kinda ambition but hmm..I jus 1 to get it at least once.

Haiz.. I miss Everything. EVERYTHING. I wonder am I stupid, dumb or what, coz if its other pple who are in the situation they'll think otherwise. A thought of it brings sadness all over me. Sigh.. even going out to movies, concerts and outings to sentosa or wateva..haiz..makes me sad. Dont know Why..

Sentimental and Romantic..?? Dont look like huh..=s

|*20th May' 06*|

All I know is to Sigh rite now. Dont noe how to reply. Jus 1 things to be cleared and smooth. =).

Anywayz..Today's Prac was seriously Intense. I mean beginning wasn't that tired, will when I played through the song with every1 1 after another den Tired. Play and pluscked till both my Index are sore, blister i guess.. better heal b4 Tues. -_-". Anywayz, it's fulfilling and satisfying.=D

After prac, went to JP with M,L,ZY,BY,M,JH&S. Decided to go watch movie,finally decided on MI3,but JH didnt join us. Seriously, MI3 is a bit much Action for me. When the suspense and Action starts arhs,I had myself grabbing onto my bag lahs. Haiyo, it's called very 'Ci Ji'.Den somemore after that, we thought our bus left le, so we played save go queue for 187,but 180 came in,den we jump out of the queue to ask uncle if its going back,but we can onli board from the 180 queue.Diao~ la.. so we all Run la..Like siao lo.. think if i were a passer by I'll think these pple are mad.. LoLx... Anywayz, We manage to catch the bus la, somemore told uncle to wait,must wait,but still run la. Very long nvr run till like this lo, darn siao, my waist kinda hurt,den leg like wobbily. Den I became over excited la.. coz after Moive i Became very awake le coz of all the Actions, den still Chase bus, the more I can't sleep though I'm darn Tired. Tt's Y i'm blogging now..lolx.. Besides I haven been Enjoying till Today lahs.Crazy day. Hahs!

|*19th May' 06*|

It was a Long Looked Forward Day for me, supposed to be Memorable and Happy, but it became the Most Sad,disappointed,Lost and Regretted Day instead.

Don't really know how to decribe it. I feel wasted. Everything could have been Alright, but it'd gone So Much Worst than Before. I might have Blew it. but All I wanted was a new chance given for me to Prove Myself, but instead I was given up & pushed downwards.-.= but I feel used and not appreciated leh..=S. I dont knoe how to explain lahs, but its just so uneasy.To not even been given that Chance, I feel like a Failure la..-.=.

Haiz, all I had in mind was just Scraped off jus like that without given a choice.

|*6th May'06*|

I think I ate too much just now during dinner. I guess part of it is because I haven been eating and drinking this pass few days and have been sleeping in through out instead. But I just don't feel the hunger at all. =\ My stomach feels queasy right now. I feel so thirsty, I've lost so much amount of fluid. My throat is starting to burn. Its either I think coz I ate too much and I'm drinking a lot of water now to try to quench my thirst, that I don't even know whether my stomach is queasy coz I ate too much of coz I'm bloated with water.=S

|*3rd May'06*|

I haven been looking forward to Wednesday since I saw my time table for this semester, coz its so freaking tight! Metally Exhausted.=\ Plus I had to skip A capella Practice for this coming 5-6 weeks.. for Virtuoso Rehearsals. A capella is a good time to relax, but rehearsals kinda makes my day more stress, but den it's all because to this Big annual performance of NPS, so it'll be worthwhile. =)

How I wish that the world is only filled with Happiness. With no hatred, no sadness, fustration and disappointment. If only... There's always a reason behind everything that is done or had happened. Everyone has a role and purpose on earth...

I miss everything...

|*2nd May'06*|

When to school for only 2hr lecture(even weeks),-.- Then when to attempt to catch some plant pests, but unfortunately not that succesful.=\ End earlier than I thought, so went to NPS clubhse lo. Do some stuff, den check cello, hmm.. felt tired and slpy, but didn't slp, coz was playing piano.=x Went to eat den go for practice.

Haiz.. see arhs.. being a good and fair person isn't easy la. Kaoz, I don't 1 to stir up unhappy feelings coz we're working together as a whole. But seriously, I jus feel wrong, i'm stubborn yea i know, at some point of time is i'm in the wrong, yea fine. But be realistic, think as a whole, there's always a chance for people to try.

[Corruption leads to Unfair treatment of Others!] =\

|*1st May'06*|

Hee...went out with lystra today to get some things.and ideas...keke..kinda excited.. i hope everything turns out well... =) Then after tt went to suntec to get the free milo thingy...=x mama ask me go take..-.= haz... Oh well.. Thanks Lystra for the fun intro thru the stuffs plus tips.. =D

|*30th April'06*|

Things has never been easy or smooth for the pass month, Busy is 1 thing and other external factors affecting. Sigh. In this kinda situation every1 might lose its patient any moment, I understand, worked up, just like I do. How i wish that I could just Hug u and say things will be fine everytime this situation arises. But it just seems too good to be true... ='(

|*22nd April' 06*|

DEAD BEAT!

|*20th April' 06*|

I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR GUIDANCE FOR ROOM BOOKING. TILL NOW I DON'T RECIEVE ANY. WHERE IS THE RESPONSIBILITY. IT WILL AFFECT THE CLUB BIG TIME NOE. DAMN IT! LEFT ALONE TO DO THINGS WHICH I'M UNSURE? ITS NOT ABT BEING DEPENDANT IT ABT BEING SAVE AND MAKE SURE THINGS ARE DONE PROPERLY AND CORRECTLY! I DON'T HAF TO LEARN THE OLD WAY CAN'T IT BE MORE FLEXIBLE?!

|*16th April' 06*|

Hee... Finally went to SFA after so long...=x Saw 1 new member hmm.. and most of the usual people weren't around. Guess their busy? hmm.. Found out the company my fren's working for has 15% discount for tickets to Westside Story... hee... Hopefully can go... and.. I want to go for the Vocal performance featuring 1 of Mozart's opera in Nafa tis thursday... buddenz..who'll go with me..haiz..-.= And.. The Marriage of Figaro, 1 of Mozart's Opera, is coming to Esplanade Theatres in July.. Wao..A lot happening in the Esplanade Theatres..lolx.. ^_^ And oh.. Mission Imppossible 3 starting on 3rd May in the Cinemas..Might watch it..=)

Sch's starting in 1 weeks time.haiz.. gonna be freaky busy manz.. My time table like like packed?!! plus practices and practices...gosh.. Do I even haf a life? Laughs..

|*13th April' 06*|

Went for Cello practice as usual, but den some mischap happened..The room we're suppose to use is under maintenance, and we end up with no rooms. Haiz.. I hope this don't happen anymore manz..very ma fan leh...=.- Wasted nearly 2 hrs, actually prac can end early de, but end up late. Oh well... it was kinda a gud thing for me..=)

Well, sometimes I really wonder, do I like teaching or not. I do like teaching other people wat I know or have learnt, especially music, whatever forms. I know I have to keep an open mind, and deliver it in a way that is reasonable( Shld know wat I mean).
Basically just sharing my knowledge, muz look at it in a right way. I have something in my mind, perhaps a new method of teaching? hmm.. I'm not too sure either..:s, but why don't I like teaching long term??? Weird huh.. =\

|*12th April' 06*|

Today got A capella practice with the new teacher. Actually not new to me lahs..coz he kinda taught me b4, in secondary school. hahahazZ... A bit similar to the teacher who taught me during choir in secondary school, so no problem lahs.. But haiz... why am I in a confused situation again.... so now what? Am I an Alto or a Soprano? I'm versatile.. yea I know, but but but????? hmm...haiz..-.=" Mezzo Sop yea but alto...=\ well it depends..haiz..Time to train up my voice again...Darn it..=.-" I like Practice though...=)

|*10th April' 06*|

Yaay!!... Went swimming today. Swam for nearly 2hrs. Haiz...my Limbs are weak nowadays mahz...sad-ed... Dropped my locker key at the deep end pool la..wah piang.. lucky nvr panic.. I kept floating la..dunno y.. last time at least can sink a bit..lolx...-.- got the key back up using my toes...lucky manz..=\
A bit scared scared arhs there... Nobody 1... the showeroom especially...=.-

Think I gonna buy my stationary stuffs tommorrow bahs..hmm..

|*9th April' 06*|

Haiz.. Wanted to go to SFA for mass but den, woke up le slept again...-.- in the end went to the later mass nearer to my place lo... I Miss SFA....I want to go there for Easter Vigil on saturday Night, nvr sang in the choir and seen them for 3-4mths..-.-" I like disappeared...haiz..

I need to get some exercise..-.= Swimming!!!! ok....and get my stuffs like laptop cover, year planner( maybe SU have..hmmm.), a new hairdo?!!! Any ideas? coz I find myself boring..lolx.. like i'm always the same even though I'm in poly for 1 yr liao..pple have some changes here and there me still the same..haiz..

|*8th April' 06*|

When for Theory class in the morning as usual, do the Qn 1 kinda qns till mad. haiz...still dun really get it eh..>.<>

Its been quite some time since I had laughed so much in a day..LOLx.. Sheena you really are funny, oh my gudness..hahahazZ... cannot stop laughing ...Lmao..lolx..=x Quite a gud day today..=)

Tmr's Palm Sunday le, dunno which church to go, I like ps the church choir seh, wanted to sing psalms for easter vigil, buddenz looks like i can't make it lahs..-.-" haven been there in 2006 yet..lolx.. I want to go leh..lolx..hmm... =

7th April' 06

Got my Laptop tonight. Thought it wasn't coming coz it was around 9+pm. The time for it's delivery was 6pm-10pm. Phew~ Was watching the 9pm show on channel 8, but den just nice the laptop came so I barely watched it coz was busy setting up the laptop..LoLx.. den tried connecting wireless in the dinning room, no signal, so I set up my music folders 1st lo. Busy transferring music from my external hard disk to the laptop, den organise it a bit. After that I brought everything into my bedroom. Tried connecting wireless again, Finally got it..wahahazZ!!! =D Very Cool manz..hehe.. =) But I don't understand why blogspot is in Traditional Chinese. However I tried to change also can't get to English arhs...Why eh? Help?! Other than that everything looks Fine to me.. heee.. =D